Today we are keeping up with the joneses and competing with thy neighbor.The outside looks nice with christmas decorations and the nice parts are visible to the public but the inside of the house is a wreck,why do we as society do this.Why are we worried about the next thinking, its my life and you do not pay my bills so why do I have to follow your footsteps.At this point I have a headache for spending to much time with other family members

Hello today my fellow readers I went to my day program and had a headache all day.I really need to move to my own place we have always taken care of business,a roof over our heads,jobs and 2 vehicles.We share 1 truck and still waiting for services, wishing that I can go back to work, its hard to move with the spinal arthritis 5 herniated disks and 1 pinched nerve so why disability won't approve me I will never understand. They say I can work resting every 2 hrs standing and sitting whenever I need, REALLY? THEY NEED TO FIND ME THAT JOB.I have applied since 2009 I know it takes a while but other people I know faked it and they receive it quickly.My first app started in 11/09 and denied 5 times so this is my second app and already 2 denials now I'm waiting to go before the judge.Ahh this time I have a letter from a doctor in N.J. saying that I can not work slam dunk SCORE...I need my apt so we can rest when we want,and clean the right way,enjoy as a family unit I'M SOOO READY THANKYOU AND GOODNIGHT.STAY BLESSED.

Good afternoon I'm up to my ears in paperwork today lol,helping hubby with his child support petition so they can lower it and yes I have a stepson he is adorable he is 18 now his birthday just passed.When he was 2 and 3 years old he was so attached to me by my leg literally,he called me mom and it was cute  but I had to correct it.His mom and his aunt were wanting to fight at every pick up and drop off even when the pickup spot was at the 25th precinct.They acted like little girls and at 1 point I was gonna beat his aunts butt but hubby got in the middle.They stop showing up at the pickup spot when we had custody of him for a little while because he was getting abused to the point that he had nail marks embedded in his head.We lost contact she moved and for 15 years my hubby paid child support and never got upset because it was for his son,but we suffered a lot he would work 40 hrs at $14 an hour and only bring $200 net.We moved a lot.We did not qualify for food stamps or help.I will save the sad story for now but 15 years later we found him we are so happy and so is he,we thought she put bad thoughts in his head but he loves us and we love him.The only problem, while he is paying $192 biweekly my stepson gets disability of $721 a month and she still does  not have a job she is raking in that money plus she gets foodstamps and medicaid wow CAN WE GET SOME OF THAT. My stepson is smart but she is trying to keep him dumb for the disability WOW....

I did not go to my program i'm so hurt as hell the food I ate last night did not agree with me.I live in my sister in law house with hubby and 2 children.She puts too much lawrys seasoning, rosmary and onions in the food.I cook 5 days a week,she does 1 and hubby does 1.Her son 36 yo lives here too but he is not required to do anything.as i'm typing my stomach is rumbling lol.Hubby was an ass today so I sometimes look forward leaving to my program.I did some much needed bloodwork came back and rested.Not only do I have mental issues but I have anemia,high blood pressure,diabetes,arthritis,5 herniated disks,1 pinched nerve and a hiatel hernia which means my stomach is actually in my chest, any questions?.I'm still waiting for food stamps I applied on 8/17/12 they just finished july applications WTF we have no income not $1.I wrote to channel 13 philly to help me.I also have the chair persons names to see if they can help.Lets see.maybe going to bed see you next post. Thankyou again......

I will be posting everyday about my life today and bits and pieces of my yesterday past this is not the cosby show which I watched faithfully as a kid then realized that no one got in trouble which is unrealistic,this is more like the rosanne show with utilities cut off,yelling at the children and blue collar jobs. What can I say i'm 38 yrs old now and had a crazy up bringing.I hope to have followers by friends,family and the newcomers..thankyou..Well tonight hubby is pissed because i'm watching giants game and he wants to watch soul train awards i'm not giving in he always keeps the remote plus I have to get ready for my day program at twin oaks from 9am-3pm for mental reasons.I was diagnosed with bipolar which I had a feeling but glad its official tommorow I will post more have a good night once again thankyou...